So its been what… 3 years but still no education.
I am looking back at my history over the last 3 years and looking back I am just completely unsure at how I got here and I mean that in a good way.
Let me elaborate. When I graduated Kentridge in June of 2003 I was just going to have fun during the summer and start community college in the Fall. All that went according to plan. I even picked up a part time job at Fry’s. However in November 2003 things changed. I was promoted to Computer Sales, a full time position, and thereby dropped school. From that point on things became… rocky. At least for a good year. For months I worked at Fry’s, earned a damn good wage; however I was incredibly unhappy. I felt like I had reached a dead end in my life. In February 2004 I decided to go to Holland in April for a few weeks as there was a family reunion and I hadn’t seen most of them in almost (at that time) 7 years. As fate would have it, Fry’s didn’t accept the fact that I wanted to leave for so long and forced me to quit. I came back expecting a job there (as they had promised) but that never happened.
This is where my personal life got all jumbled because at this point I still wanted to go back to school and get a BA in Computer Science. Only this time back in Holland. I was quickly accepted into their program even with my crappy grades. Reason? Dutch citizen with an international background gives the school something to gloat about even if the student had crappy grades. So yeah… personal life. I was working as a Verizon customer support rep at Livebridge now but in my personal life things started… well getting complicated. Started dating a girl named Breanne which was great at first and really made me feel a lot more comfortable around girls and I was truly in love with her. But it quickly turned into something overly complicated and the shit literally hit the fan. Looking back I see my errors but I have no regrets.
I probably would’ve had regrets if it had gone a different way then it went. See during this same summer of 2004 I met this girl named Cam. I am still with this girl today. She is probably the one that saved me from a lot of pain. Not only was she patient with me and willing to wait for me to come around because of what happened only weeks before with the whole debacle. At that point I switched jobs and eventually landed a job at Speakeasy where I worked for quite sometime. I was starting to get more experience in help desk type situations and also learned the ways of a Mac.
While at Speakeasy I submitted my resume for a job at digital.forest where I continued to build up my experience. Now in the end I work at a different job and somehow I am earning far more then the average person makes when they graduate with a 4 year degree. However I am still not proud of myself. Like previously, I made life altering decisions to avoid school and whenever I tried getting back into the system, something came up. However this is the first time where I can’t see anything come up. It is funny though. My brother is going to WSU and is literally poor. Yet he is only a year younger then me and here I am able to sit in my own condo looking at my own computer and say “Wow I am not doing to shabby” yet I want more. I suppose its a good thing in one way but a terrible thing in another.
Do I regret any decisions I made in the past few years? Yes I do, but I can’t do anything about it and at the same time they allowed me to become a better person. Everything in the last 3 years doesn’t seem like it was for nothing. Going back to Holland got me away from Fry’s and out of this bad rhythm. The many jobs I took allowed me to get where I am today. Dating Breanne allowed me to date Cam and become a better person to Cam and not making the same mistakes I previously made. However at the time I thought those were all bad decisions after I saw what happened when I made each decision (going back to Holland, taking on different jobs or dating Breanne and then subsequently hurting her feelings). The only real decision I truly still regret is not finishing up school. So I am going to do something about it. I am taking a real hard look at Cascadia Community College as its close to where I work and literally my bus stop is there. It shares its campus with UW Bothell, so it’ll make an easy transfer as well if I get to that point.
We shall see what my future holds!
Yvo
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